The Past ..

I usually smile at past memories, but how can I smile when I see how I could have changed my past's future?


It seems as if all of the people who use to be in my life are doing so poorly. I take a look at their myspace, just too see how they're doing and I find a picture of their tattoo. Tattoo's aren't bad, but of your current boyfriend? That's a little idiotic, especially seeing as they are either 19 or below. I mean not only that, but their interests say " Getting High, Getting Drunk, Thizzing, Getting Faded. " I mean, sure that's cool have your fun, but don't make it your lifestyle. And the most ultimate shocker ever. I come across a picture of a child with a caption, " Isn't my baby beautiful? " Wow, dramatic right? And to think that person use to be someone I was close with, even my bestfriend at the time. Amazing how different our lives are now, and how dissapointed I am in them. How can you be a mother or a father drinking, smoking, and thizzing half the time? How can you give your child a great life if you're only 18? Ok, strike that, age doesn't make a parent. But no job? no money? Still living with your mom? Irresponsibility . I can't even believe it, it's almost devistating to think i'm still not in their life to help them change. To think if I would have stayed in their lives I could have lead them in a different direction, maybe they wouldn't have ran away from home, maybe they wouldn't have had a child, maybe they wouldn't be hooked on intoxications, and just maybee ... They would be a better person "/



I kinda feel like it's all my fault, for not helping them when I could have, sheesh all bad ....